Friday, May 27, 2005
My strength comes from the Lord. He who holds my future, plans everything for me. I thank Him in the name of Jesus for everything and anything that comes my way.
am currently waiting for the guys to play mahjong with me! shit that ronald who went back to sleep. shit that denny who is still sleeping. shit that ah lun who turned off his phone. since 8.41am (refering to my previous entry), i have been sitting here, right in front of this computer until now, which is 11.23am. -.-" my butt is rotting. yawn.
i looked at the sun and it hurt my eye. it's shining like a golden nugget flying in the air (reminded of airpork) =x ..what a boring friday it is.
OH YES. TALKING ABOUT FRIDAY. I WAS SUPPOSED TO HEAD DOWN SPARKS TODAY BUT FUCKING EXAMS CAUSED THIS STUPID BLOCKAGE FROM GOING! HEH HEH. I'LL WAIT TILL THE 1OTH. DEN THERE WILL BE NO MORE OBLIGATIONS! MUAHAHAHAHAHA! SUCK IT O'S..! i am evil. xD
it's 8.41 am. a miracle that i am blogging now, up so early in the morning.
i woke up like a little girl, so enthusiastic about going to school. mum was happy to see me awake by myself. i took my shower, den called Cindy. both of us were preparing for school until
I CALLED 5 PEOPLE AND NONE OF THEM PICKED UP. i was beginning to sense something wrong. den abigail told me they might not be going for today's lesson because they're all reviews! and if i go, i'll be alone! =(
imagine how sian cindy and i was when we heard that. i missed class for about 3 weeks. finally i'm awake to attend.... =(
today's the 27th - which means it's 2 months and a day since 26th Mar.
blah.
Wednesday, May 25, 2005
went down to mac and settled some kiddo things and came home. boring afterall.
i read through my past entries and i thought of the past; how jason and i got together, how we spent our times; how did school life go; about friendship and
all. it's pretty funny actually. kinda miss those times.
if i could turn back time, i would never never be the audrey i am now, i would be someone who he can accept and love. i would wait for the day to come. some will never know how nice and different he is. some will think im naive and silly. 4 yrs ain't gonna be a long time if i perservere. support me, yes?
Monday, May 23, 2005
my blessings to the newly wed, April and Ben.
few years down the road i see myself wearing the bridal gown and walking towards my groom. that must be the happiest and prettiest day of my life. jason was there today, but we didnt really talk. i just woke up from a long afternoon nap. i remembered what i dreamt of. how nice.. it's been twice since i dreamt about jason and i getting back together. go ahead and call me naive.
idontcareanymore.the lunch buffet - wonderful. andy and i were cutting queues all the way. haha. whacking all the durian puffs, chicken wings, fish fillets and all. our buttons were expanding and bursting. now im hungry after my nap =x ..grrr. my dieting plan cant go on!
yay. i've started saving money. but after tmr i'm broke. i gotta get my fone which is at the service centre and it cost fucking forty bucks! ... no money, =(
Sunday, May 22, 2005
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thank God my cough is much better. but i aint feeling any better cos i've got flu!!
DAMN IT. FUCK IT. SCREW IT. BLOODY UPSIDE DOWN PLEASE!!!bad thing is only one of my nostrils is blocked. therefore i cant breathe properly.-.-"
worse thing is i've got a wedding ceremony to attend tmr.
worst thing is i gotta reach the bride's place at 7am in the morning at
BEDOK! and where the fuck am i staying?!
grrr. courtesy of adeline volunteered to pick me up at amk >.< ..
the worst of the worst is that
I DO NOT WAN TO APPEAR SICK AND HAGGARD IN FRONT OF EVERYONE AND ESPECIALLY SOMEONE WHOM I LOVE MOST OKAY.anyway, tmr's April and Ben's wedding. CONGRATS! zhu ni men mei tian kai xin. bai tou dao lao. zhao shen gui zi!! i want to wear the wedding gown so much, and my prince charming would wear his suit. cant wait for the day. and who noes. maybe i might be left on the shelf.
ya. and it's Vesak Day after midnite. the vegetarian stalls must be earning loads of profits. muahaha.
wonder what will happen to me next. firstly, wet cough with green-yellowish phlame (dunno how to spell) den dry cough ..secondly, blocked left-sided nostril. thirdly, non-stop flowing mucus from the blocked nostril. fourthly, i find it strange when mucus can flow out from a blocked nose. lastly, DREY IS DEAD.
Saturday, May 21, 2005
*coughs coughs* arghh. already coughing for a week. pls can. dry cough summore. -__-"..
headed down sparks last night. left at 6 for centrepoint to meet ah lun and denny to go home tgt >.<
i wanna share this good news so
desperately.
i've lost 2 kg! dont ask me how much i weigh now. i wont tell. =D ..i ate only 1 meal the day before, 1 meal ytd, 1 meal today. muahaha. my dieting plan gotta go on! ^.^V
Friday, May 20, 2005
bored. came back home from hougang point about an hour ago. before that was at limei's. got my nails done! they look fake. cos it's long. ppl might think i went for manicure. cos my skill too good le. =x wahahahas. omg. im coughing like hell nowadays. feel like my lungs gonna fly out anytime. dunno how im going clubbing tmr. faint.
Thursday, May 19, 2005
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Wednesday, May 18, 2005
what a letdown. i'm cleansing myself, cleansing so thoroughly from this big mess. a big disappointment, a big sorry to me, myself and i. i've come to a
final conclusion that
guys in the 21st century are weirdos. this is serious please.
dammit can?enough!
pissed.xiao wen flew back to China early this morning. gonna miss her till the 11th june. awwww.. i miss our gossips. =x
Tuesday, May 17, 2005
i've not been attending lessons for the past week. i seriously do need some mmooottiiivvaaaatiiioonn pls.
guys nowadays are weird. real weird. what's wrong with the world? lols. i need a change in my daily routine. when the sun rises, i'm sleeping. when the sun sets, i'm awake. this results in skipping classes and everything to entertain myself.
what comes to your mind when someone tells you, "life sucks. life is boring."? well, for me, i think that if you live by your principals, you will be a winner in life thru thick and thin. you are responsible for the good times and in evil circumstances. if you think that life sucks, den jump off the buiding la! =x same goes for love. heard of "love sucks"? love dont suck at all, not a total bit. it just hurts. and if you think it sucks, den dont love. dont bring yourself into the relationship. loving someone doesnt mean you gotta love them. you can choose to love in silence or to be hurt. argh. i'm so lame. i think i dont make any sense at all.
-gone-
Saturday, May 14, 2005
i've not been updating these few days cos my com's down again. boo.
clubbed at sparks last nite. bumped into so many peeps which i've not seen them for months. haha. i wanna go sultan! roar!!!
Tuesday, May 10, 2005
To you again:
I've finally know the truth. Thanks.
Once and never can be yours again.
To you,
I was in the kitchen when the past came to my mind. Thinking that everything was the beautiful truth, then it turned into a lie. The reasons into excuses. Please don't lie to me anymore, for I hate to be deceived. And I could assure you that I've never lied to you ever. Even if I did, I would tell you the truth at the end of the day. Until the day you're truthful, I can never be clear and will remain as confuse as ever.
Once yours.
Monday, May 09, 2005
One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord.
Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky.
In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand. Sometimes there were two sets of footprints, other times there was one only.
This bothered me because I noticed that during the low periods of my life, when I was suffering from anguish, sorrow or defeat, I could see only one set of footprints, so I said to the Lord, "You promised me Lord, that if I followed you, you would walk with me always.
But I have noticed that during the most trying periods of my life there has only been one set of footprints in the sand.
Why, when I needed you most, have you not been there for me? "
The Lord replied, "The years when you have seen only one set of footprints, my child, is when I carried you."
a nice one from jiayi.
well, at times i thought that i should just fuck it and let go. at times i thought that i should wait like a fool. stupid? silly? many things u and i cant explain. well, love is blind. it's so blind that we cant see what's going on. we cant see what's wrong. how a person matures in a relationship is to understand the whole situation and let go. oh.. shucks. wtf am i saying. sometimes it's easy to advice people. but when it comes to myself, or maybe you who are reading this right now, it is so difficult. that's when u realise how blind love is. okay. craps.
Monday, May 02, 2005
HOT! HOT!! HOT!!! i've taken 2 showers ever since i woke up today. the weather is so damn stupidly humid.
koped the link for jukebox from dree's site. lols =x. cos iwebtunes is so damn filled with virus and ive got no other idea where to get songs from. hahas. edited the width and height so that it could fit. =D now it's perfectly done. next thing im gonna do is to get the html for the scrolling links. this saves much more space. any kind soul pls tag me if u got the code for it kays? huggies.
ya. stayed home da whole day. no money, no talk. boooo! life just suck muh tralala~
met up with dree at town just now. walked around and i realised that money cant be kept in my purse. arghh. sold the fone that jason returned me for 8o bucks and i'm left with like 3 bucks now.
- white handbag @ trendyzone : 19.9o
- dark grey tote bag @ tomato can : 25.8o
- eye makeup gel remover + 2 packets of cotton wool : 23.9o
- food : 5
- pencil eyeliner : 4.9o
yupp. around there la. and im meeting the other girls tmr. darnnnn broke now. headache ar!
Sunday, May 01, 2005
ah. finally my background's got a new and totally different image. lol.
CREDIT GOES TO MISS AUDREE SZE AI MIN! (she requested). and my blog's got an alien invasion. =x
it's a hot hot hot sunday afternoon and i've got nothing to do, nowhere to go. lucky me received a sms from the above mentioned asking me out. hahas. okay. the girls are still deciding if we're still going to sentosa tmr as planned. hope so. heh. it's been a long time since i went beaching, tanning, and swimming.
life suck big time when im broke. arghh. gotta meet jason later to take back muh fone. sell it den got money le! =D~ hahas. hais. talking bout him, feel so sad ah! tmd. __
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